Doubts & Fears

She smiles whilst they gaze at her

on the inside, she feels doubts and fears

but she was taught not to bother

throughout all of these years.

Throughout the night, within so many smiles

she feels rushed and overwhelmed

calm down, she whispers to herself

there is nothing here that can not be held.

She is loud, she is bright,

she makes everyone loses their sight

She entertains

She is fun

She is a prude

Wait, wasn't she the one that was rude?

It is within that the paradox lies,

but this is also something she lives by

She asks herself if someone would ever see her

for who she is

and cherish her imperfections

the way that she never learned how to.